Born: December 22, 1940
Died: March 27, 2013
This is my Biological Father, a Man I did not get to know very well personally, but one that has been a significant influence, and enigma to my life. His history concerning me, is pretty much my own, My brothers came into being with just enough separation from that era to theirs, the only crossover between them is myself.
He has been a person I admired, reviled, wondered about, and from time to time been a bit angry over. What are my memories of our times together are good ones, what I saw was a person I wanted to emulate, and to not disappoint, that last part I do not know if I did or did not, I never shared that part with my heart with him. perhaps I should have. Since I did not, I can wonder from time to time, and carry on.
This is a man who was very artistic, fantastic pieces of art he had created, especially in later years, in direct spite of ravaging Rheumatoid Arthritis, he would create fantastically. I have some artist in myself, but I don't think Id be able to keep up with him. Family, and Country were cherished things in his heart, and he never wanted to be too far away from either at any given time. From the posts of memories I have read of those who did have him in their lives regularly, indeed his passion on family was deep.
I am often told that I am so very much like Him, by those who have seen and know him. remarkable being that there is the whole of geography, and such that has not allowed a direct transference of personality.
I am not going to be able to share with him what I think and feel now, not that I did that much in the past, the lean to stubborn in both of us was deep enough to keep things that way. But I do know that where he is today, he knows what he is to me, which is many many things, some good and some bad, all very interesting and tangible in my life and world.
And when it is my day to cross that veil, I will get a chance to commune with him once again. That will be a good moment indeed.
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